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I cried for this drama for a few times..
Don't know how to explain the feeling of this.

the last summer the first

This is the last summer holiday for my taiwan's further study.

I'm going to be year four pre-graduate student.

And I have no special plan for my last summer holiday.

I go to Kaohsiung to stay with my second boyfriend, Andy.

Flash back to my last summer holiday, I was with my first boyfriend, Tom.

At the end of my holiday, I broke up with him, with his reason-- for my own good.

I stayed calm at the beginning, and I desprated at the second month.

I cried for around one and half month, and when I decided to recover, I recognized Andy.

I'm not thinking of be with him.

Yes I have to admit I did think of it at the most beginning.

Now I stay at Andy home alone as he is at his own home now.

Kaohsiung is extremely hot!

I don't wish and never like to wear even T-shirt.

I hope I could stand for it, as I hope I could not switch the air-conditioner.

The variation of lover's emotion

It is a raining day, the temperature of Taipei now is 14 degree celsius.I'm just come back from teamwork discussing.Yesterday, one of my good friend told me about hers.There is one guy, who everyone thinks a good boy, and with his girlfriend aim, is a bastard!He gets along with his girlfriend for at least five years. And he counted my friend!Although after some time they was break, but during new year, he came to her again!And he simply just took it as nothing over and asked her to go travel and stay a night.Anyone also understand his mean, he certainly had bad idea with her!I was so disappointed with this little boy that I knew.He totally is a scandal!I felt so bad for my friend.Every girls just want a boy who treats her truly and nice.But boys just think of making love with every girls.So unfair.
It's my turn.I met with my ex-boyfriend yesterday. I felt so angry with him.Whenever I see him, what comes to my mind is he let his now's girlfriend to hurt me physically-- the one, who is the actually third partyand what comes to my mind is he blamed on me every time, said I was wrong whatever I said.He never blames on her and how tired he was he still go out with her.Such a fool I was. I should know earlier. But that proved I had faith with him and trusted in him.And I really can't face him as nothing happened and I'm not wish to spare them any forgiveness.I ask myself to be strong because life still goes on whenever.
The last scene is my dear friend.She is the most compatible couple in all eyes. She is cute and her boyfriend is so funny.They are lovebirds of silver screen. I was shocked by her suddenly cried and smiled and cried again.I can't imagine even her will like this. As we all look good at them.Well, this is unrelevant. No words can explain Love, that's called LOVE.
Sometimes I do really think that Love is so trouble and so frustrated.Whoever will feel troubled with Love, but everyone still thirst for it or even die for it.Well, just hope that people can manage it in proper and rational ways!

The First One

This is the one that i want it to be written in English wholy.
I'm eagerly to improve my English as soon as possible.
I try to read magazines, Wall Street Jornal and listen to movie or lyrics of English songs.
I've become more active and eager to learn after I'm with Andy.

Andy, younger 2 years than I, studying in Kaohsiung while i'm studying in Taipei.
Knew him through a training camp of foreign students, he was my teammate.
The first impression he gave me was he looks like one of my favor friend-- Eugene.
Eugene is fiver years older than I, handsome, smart, and very childish.
He is humor and interesting, but childish.
Andy has the alike face and feeling, i quite interesting with him, and i was trying to get closer with him. But I gave up after he forgot my name(when we were playing the game of memorizing teammate's name) and his action of taking another girl's picture.
I felt disappointed and no more interest with him.

After the camp, we did not contact to each other anymore.
Although sometimes I would think of nudge him and talk a little, but one more second, I gave up the thinking.
After one or two weeks, I nudged him for asking photos taken by his camera. Twice, I asked from him, resultless.
Then, I asked him to give me when he fixed it. It came to the end of 2007, and i knew he was planning to celebrate the new year coming in Taipei on 31 December 2007.
I thought that time I had to work, so I was not joining him and I saw he bored and I offered to bring him to Maokong.
His first response: Just you and me!? made me angry, as I had no any idea for him, was he thinking I would do anything with him?! Who cares about you? I was just offering you a place to go!
But after that, after some delays(waited for his friend) and some troubles(too cold i had to bring more scarf and I repeatedly forgot to bring helmet and keys, and bought his dinner), we reached Maokong around 11pm.
That's really cold and we couldn't stay any longer then went to YaoYue directly! I abruptly asked him to pretend my boyfriend.

During that time, I suffered a lot of being stared and troubled. I'd like to ask someone pretend my boyfriend then they would not talk about me anymore.
Andy frankly agreed. I was so surprised that he seemed to know about it before, and it's used to him. Well, since he agreed, I just need to act.
Although after all, Penny told me it was so easily to see we were acting, but at least, we really get together.

I have no confidence with him at the first month we get together, especially he told me that what he need is a WIFE, and NOT A GIRLFRIEND, I thought he was crazy as we just got together for a few hours. And the next three days he kept asking me if I would go Macau with him after degree. I really thought he was crazy!

After one month I took a consideration of be with him, for the rest of life.
I still can't accept as it all comes too fast for me.
He just parts with his ex-girlfriend not more than 2weeks, and i parted with my ex-boyfriend 3 months. Will it too fast for US?

But to have this dream and work hard for realizing it, isn't it a good thing to do?
I feel his fear, his fear for my leaving him. And I feel his trying hard.
So I try it too.
Although I'm not so love him as I did for my ex-boyfriend, I'm really trying it, and I hope it will be realized.
Andy boy... don't make me disappointed.. don't make me hurt..
as i'm going to put you in my second place!(the first place is nothing could be replaced FOREVER!- it's my family)